That night, during my walk in the forest I took an upload from dr. Tachikawa’s stock nearby the stream.

“Such a huge strong one. And how powerful he looks. I sneaked to him and when I came in his neighbourhood I tried carefully, a bit frightened to pull his attention. He came to me slowly. I stayed there petrified. What did he want? He took my head. Bit softly in my lips and licked my teeth. Then he pushed me aside and went away loudly screaming. A bit confused I stayed behind. Would he come back?

When I came back into the presence, I was lying on my back in the grass. With a shock I realized what had happened with me. Food and sex. Is that all there is in a monkey’s life? The life of a chimpanzee in a nutshell. I had to quit it……. Taking those uploads. This isn’t good, I feel so….. I don’t want this, no, stop it! Stop thinking about it! It is over and done with. Going to Tokyo as soon as possible……… Away from here……!

It felt as if I hadn’t washed me in several days. Everything felt dirty to my body. Hairy, itchy and sweaty. In a reflex I jumped in the stream and suddenly I got my head back. I feared myself. There I was, a head full of monkey memories, being half monkey, half human. I was completely confused. Soaking wet and blubbery I crawled to the dry land. I could cry. What had happened to me? On hand and feet I crawled towards my car. Only when I could lean on the car, I could stand up completely. As if I needed things, belongings, materials out of the human world to feel human again. I waited for dark till I drove back to Braintec. No one had to see me this way.