Memories. It are things with a very rare character. I was reading a book a while ago that sophisticatedly explained the similarity between good and bad memories:

Good memories are bad, because they are over. The moment of the good memory is gone, done and over with; you can only miss them badly.

Bad memories are rather good because they are over. It has happened, it’s gone now, done and over with; forget about them. Look further and go for it with a fresh mind. Time for new things.

That’s how the urge for new uploads stays alive. It are always those “funny”, “pretty”, “harmless”, “satisfying” experiences.

While I’m writing this I look out of the window every now and then and I see Adelle and Steward walking across the park lane. Adelle has told me this morning that she would go to town with Steward for a drink and a snack. She wants to try hearing him out about his plans for the M-stores. I see them stepping inside Adelle’s car. With her own car, then she has the control on her side. She managed that well. It is still early in the evening, but I suddenly feel very tired. I am going to lie down on my bed. A nice sleep and I’ll see if I’ll do something or watch TV if I wake up this evening.

The sound of my telephone ringing woke me up. Two o’clock at night! Who the hell is callin’? Heavenly, it was Rosanne! She has been at Kodjiro’s, seen Sonja and spoken to Jessica. There was no end at her enthusiastic torrent of words. I was completely overwhelmed by the stories she told me. She sounded a bit confused, more than two hundred words per minute, but that was rather caused by the amount of experiences and she hadn’t got a screw loose. I’ve seen that before in her. She also had some necessary things to say about Hans and Heather. A lot of little ducks have been swimming over by now. It must be six in total if I’m not miscalculating. We discussed our doubts about Braintec. I told her about being homesick for Elgin. That I was thinking about going there. At the same moment I realised how I would love to see Rosanne, as soon as possible. “I miss that girl! Damned, what was I supposed to do!” I told her about the box of M-stores, that Tachikawa had sent me, with the card and a ticket. Then it all cleared up. We both wanted to go out in the sun enjoying an upload. She is coming to here; or I am going to there. Elgin has to wait a bit longer. Suddenly our telephone conversation broke off. “Shall I call her back?” I thought. “No, that is not necessary, the most important thing had already become clear.”

find out how it was for Rosanne